Fruition

Well, things always work out when you place them in God's hands. The fact that I'm writing in the tone I am is a sign I've changed. I tend to write abstractly, yet right now I'm writing (I would think), more personally and hopefully connected with my readers. I'm going to say a few things and I would like to just first say thanks to everyone who has helped me get to this point.

God has been the biggest person, idea, faith, driving force, in my life since day one, yet I've strayed away from him at times. Recently, though, I found him once again, and with a fervor I had never experienced before, this fervor only possible by the "word" of God in combination with faith. I am happy to say that my existence as a youth has been quite pleasant and enjoyable. I have had a lot of good things come into my life, as well as a few unfortunate things. But as the end draws near to the upstart of my journey in life, a new phase of my "self" and personality is emerging, and the power of God has shown itself to me to let me know that He is here for me and He is in me, and He's calling me to His army, His fellowship. I feel so uplifted and have for the past month and a half. My walk is just beginning, yet it is a strong start and I am quickly picking up speed.

A lot has been shown to me that I could not see before. I can see my path much clearer now and I have an idea of where God is taking me. At the same time there is a lot I do not know, and that is for me to find out along the way when I am much stronger in the word and his love. I'm just so glad for this to all have happened. Everything truly is happening at the "perfect" time, and I cannot hold that up as my work. I am so glad to have all my friends that I do and to have my family that I have that are so much closer to me in spirit and love than they ever truly can be physically.

My goals, which I believe God has set in front of me, are pretty straightforward and seem to me to be pretty darn cool. Only some time in this meager existence on the material Earth will tell of what God has had in store for me all along. Also, I cannot comprehend what miracles I will witness through God, yet I do appreciate that I will get to witness God's work, miracles, for the rest of my life as I already have. God calls us to be shepherds unto this Earth and to be caretakers of it and his children who inhabit it. I believe my journey around the world has already begun and has barely gotten to the good part. Mind you I do realize that nothing is easy and you have to work for most of what you do, but I pray that my growing relationship and communication with God will give me the strength and courage I need to keep on God's work.

As this chapter of my life "legally" comes to a close for me tomorrow, I figured it would be a good time to just sit down and sort out my thoughts for myself and others. I do not know what all will happen with my choices and decisions, but since they are deeply rooted in Jesus Christ, I know that they will contribute justly to the Lord's loving work.

Now, I do believe I am quite tired and I plan to head home, do some laundry, and prepare for my eventful 18th birthday tomorrow. A relaxing weekend in San Antonio with my sister should be very nice, and I plan to enjoy every bit of it, with God's will of course. May all who read this, and those that do not, go in God's grace, glory, love and righteousness. May you all go in peace.

Love, Peter.